new chapter?

So I haven't written in quite a while.
Summer is now over.
September has come and gone.
It is already October and I can hardly believe it.

So much has changed.
So much new.
So much unknown.

I am a different person.
On second thought, I really don't think it's me that's changed.
I've been the same me all along.
It seems to be others who have changed.
And from that, I have simply learned.
I have learned a lot.

Things aren't always what they seem.
People aren't always who they seem.
People lie.
And people make mistakes.
And people give up far too easily I've found.

It's crazy how much your life can change in such a short span of time.
It's crazy how a love that you thought was so strong; something you thought could last forever, can be taken away from you so soon, and so suddenly.
It's crazy how friends you thought would stick by you through anything, can just turn around and be something completely different than you ever thought they could be.
It's crazy how someone who has a really good sense of people can be so unbelievably wrong.

I wish you didn't have that hold on me.
I hate that I let you.
You can tell it and look at it however you want, but in the end, it was your decision that did this, not mine.
And at the time, I was devastated.

In another direction,
I hate that I trusted you.
You took advantage of that.
You took advantage of the situation.
And I guess you got what you wanted.
I hope you're happy.
And I'm over it.  I really am.
But I just don't have room in my life for your bullshit.
I don't need it, or deserve it.

But don't flatter yourself.
Either of you.

On the other hand,
It amazes me how it only takes one person to make you realise..
It's not the end of the world.
No matter how much you believed it was.
Yeah, maybe life -as you knew it- is done with.
But there is still so much room for new, and more than likely, better experiences.
It just takes one new person in your life to make you see the light.

The crazyness is over.
And I'm ready to come back down to earth and regain my sanity.
I'm ready to see where this new road takes me.
'Cause so far.. I'm doing better than okay.
I have my roommates.
I have my best friends.
London is great.
MIA is great.
And I have something new.  :)
Who knows where that will take me.

♥



I've always loved Pink.. her new song is fantastic.
It seems to fit for me.


Right, right, turn off the lights.
We're gonna lose our minds tonight.
What's the dealio?
I love when it's all too much.
5am, turn the radio up.
Where's the rock n' roll?


Party crasher; penny snatcher.
Call me up if you are gangsta
Don't be fizzy, just get dizzy.
Why so serious?


So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways.
All my underdogs.
We will never be, never be anything but loud and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks.
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and raise your glass!


Slam, slam.
Oh hot damn.
What part of a party don't you understand?
We should just freak out.
Freak out already.
Can't stop.
Coming in hot.
I should be locked up right on the spot.
It's so on right now.
It's so fucking on right now.


Party crasher, penny snatcher.
Call me up if you are gangsta.
Don't be fizzy, just get dizzy.
Why so serious?


So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways.
All my underdogs.
We will never be, never be anything but loud and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks.
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and raise your glass!
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and raise your glass!


Oh shit! My glass is empty.
That sucks!


So if you're too school for cool,
and you're treated like a fool, you can choose to let it go.
We can always, we can always party on our own.
So raise your, oh fuck.
So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways.


All my underdogs.
We will never be, never be anything but loud and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks.
So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways.
All my underdogs.
We will never be, never be anything but loud and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks.
Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and raise your glass!


Won't you come on and come on and raise your glass for me!
Just come on and come on and raise your glass for me!


 
♥